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  I wish I were a turtle, slow and shy, And losing you never made me cry. Even if it did, I'd have no fears, Butterflies would feast on my tears. I wish I were a turtle, big and hard, I'd always be home, under my guard. If I would crack, my shell would stay, Protecting me. From decay. If I were a turtle, I'd have more time, More time to mourn what used to be mine. Instead I am a human, I have no shell, I know exactly for whom tolls this bell. If you were a turtle, and you lived long, I'd understand why you were gone. I'd get those bracelets to keep track, Hoping one far day, you'd find your way back.

Misery. A short story.   One day you will have to explain  to God  why you let me go with the same hands  he gave you  to hold me.

Its incredibly intense to date. Fall in love with someone, be with them, no matter for how long. And then at some point, someone makes a judgement call: I'd rather not have you in my life than have you in my life. And it's of course not that simple, its complicated, nuanced... But essentially, thats exactly whats happening. Someone saying I love you but I'd rather go on without you from this point on. Thats fucking brutal, man. It destroys people. You fall in love with someone, and they fall put of love with you and they make a decision they no longer want you in their life. They want to go forward in their life and they are fine with you not being a part of it.  Good luck getting over that.