Difficulty breathing. 

Fear.

Sense of danger.

Trembling.

Lightheadedness.

Sense of danger.

Fear.

Difficulty breathing.

Fear.

Sense of danger.

Fear.

Danger.

Danger.

Danger.

Danger.


I am trying to breathe. But its hard when your nose is stuffed, your mouth dry, the skin on your face hurts. Danger. The grounding technique. Danger. All I want is sleep. My head is being crushed. Swollen. Heart beats rapidly. I can hear it scream in my ears. The drums. I put my right hand on my chest. My therapist taught me that. I dont feel my heart under my hand. How can it be? I hear it, I feel it inside of me drumming, but I dont feel it under my hand. I check the pulse. Its there. 80 beats per minute. Pretty normal. I am still trying to locate my heart in my chest. Where did it go? I place my hand in the middle. I focus. Its not there. I move slightly to the left. Focus. Not there. I move further left. Focus. Not there. Upwards. Focus. Not there. I lost the heart. Its beating somewhere. Its just not in its usual place.  


I need to find a way to calm down. I do the five technique. One thing I can see; Danilo. One thing I can feel; my fingers. One thing I can smell; nothing. One thing I can hear; birds. One thing I can taste; water. 


I have to sleep.


Writing down anxiety attacks.

It helps.


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